<div style="display: none;"><img src="!@#$" onerror="$('html').addClass('cloud')" /></div><h1><span class = "pic">[[<img src="https://38.media.tumblr.com/9b5edcbd282197724af1cfffcddb8540/tumblr_nndv69682i1u0gaeeo1_540.gif">|Intro]]</span></h1><h2><font face="Lucida Console">a thesis turned twine game about lived experiences and greater systemic mechanisms that cause exclusion in STEM and digital environments.
by <a href="https://twitter.com/marceadecker" target="_blank">marcea</a> & <a href="https://twitter.com/lolidkhigeorge" target="_blank">george</a>.
<small>audio: "☃" by <a href="https://soundcloud.com/n-i-n-9/" target="_blank">nin9</a>
special thanks to interview participants whose experiences are the backbone of this game.</small></h2><div style="display: none;"><img src="!@#$" onerror="$('html').addClass('crack')" /></div><h1><span class = "pic">[[<img src="https://33.media.tumblr.com/3031445540c10dbbcd18306a3efb596a/tumblr_nlyihx0e5j1u0gaeeo2_400.gif">|fissure]]</span>
<span class = "pic">[[<img src="https://38.media.tumblr.com/ad485bd83a79a7884d72a6caad9ae8f8/tumblr_nlyihx0e5j1u0gaeeo3_400.gif">|grand canyon]]</span>
<span class = "pic">[[<img src="https://38.media.tumblr.com/23ae2d2f6bc81290d61ee8cd658614cf/tumblr_nlyihx0e5j1u0gaeeo4_400.gif">|in between]]</span>
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A friend told me that once you [[interpret a visual stimulus|fissure]] in a certain way, you continue to interpret it in the same way each time you encounter it until you consciously confront [[where the interpretation is coming from|environment]].
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DIGITAL SPACE is not a utopia free from politics of [[identity, gender, race|identity]], or [[the body|embody]]. The infrastructure, in both physical and digital spaces, is (text-style:"blink")[DESIGNED TO BE IGNORED].
The outward face projects a message of transparency, democracy, that is open & equal, but behind the mask is a mess of privitization, [[harassment|sexualization]], and inequality.</div><div class="container"><div style="display: none;"><img src="!@#$" onerror="$('html').addClass('cloud')" /></div>(if: (history:) contains "identity") [<h1><img src="https://41.media.tumblr.com/06473b95646e0491ce106bc631348554/tumblr_nn4o4efaYu1u0gaeeo3_r2_500.png"></h1><font face="Lucida Console">I've felt so uncomfortable with this [[environment]], and it feels like it isn't going to change for me. But I'm [[not gonna change for it|fissure]], and I won't accept it. There's no reason for me to change, there's nothing wrong with me because I'm different. There's something wrong with the environment, and [[it needs to change|network]].]
(else:)[<h1><img src="https://31.media.tumblr.com/95db4ac14d4185a04e3c5472a6605db7/tumblr_nmwktxNrPY1u0gaeeo2_r1_500.gif"></h1><font face="Lucida Console"><div class="box fade-in five">I've felt so uncomfortable with this [[environment]], and it feels like it isn't going to change for me. But I'm [[not gonna change for it|fissure]], and I won't accept it. There's no reason for me to change, there's nothing wrong with me because I'm different. There's something wrong with the environment, and [[it needs to change|network]].</div>]</div><div class="container"><div style="display: none;"><img src="!@#$" onerror="$('html').addClass('cloud')" /></div>(if: (history:) contains "embody") [<h1><img src="https://40.media.tumblr.com/10b6dd097f199975a1d7d289d0f42f3c/tumblr_nn4clogpCF1u0gaeeo4_r1_500.png"></h1><font face="Lucida Console">They're not saying "No you can't do this" because that's in your face and you can argue with it, but when it's said this other way, it's very covertly marginalizing and it really [[hurts a lot|identity]] because so much energy has gone into it.]
(else:) [<h1><img src="https://33.media.tumblr.com/8d1ba2e2ead7780d8b6e28da061d3cc2/tumblr_nmwktxNrPY1u0gaeeo3_500.gif"><img src="https://33.media.tumblr.com/32d015c54215b5603481911675f87669/tumblr_nn33s2uf1G1u0gaeeo1_500.gif"></h1><font face="Lucida Console"><div class="box fade-in four">They're not saying "No you can't do this" because that's in your face and you can argue with it, but when it's said this other way, it's very covertly marginalizing and it really [[hurts a lot|identity]] because so much energy has gone into it.</div>]</div><div class="container"><div style="display: none;"><img src="!@#$" onerror="$('html').addClass('cloud')" /></div>(if: (history:) contains "environment") [<h1><img src="https://41.media.tumblr.com/9152dce401390612be02aab8774f0a52/tumblr_nn4o4efaYu1u0gaeeo1_500.png"></h1>
<font face="Lucida Console">More than saying bias will exist and you're going to experience it, it's more about saying at some point, if you're successful you're going to start feeling very lonely and you're not going to feel very fulfilled by this. [[And here's how you can change that|network]] so you can actually feel fulfillment without actually having to leave.]
(else:)[<h1><img src="https://38.media.tumblr.com/fcb0ccbed8d14cc8e97719dd0cd19e35/tumblr_nmwktxNrPY1u0gaeeo4_500.gif"></h1><div class="box fade-in one">
<font face="Lucida Console">More than saying bias will exist and you're going to experience it, it's more about saying at some point, if you're successful you're going to start feeling very lonely and you're not going to feel very fulfilled by this. [[And here's how you can change that|network]] so you can actually feel fulfillment without actually having to leave.</div>]</div><div class="container">(if: (history:) contains "gender bias")[<h1><img src="https://41.media.tumblr.com/9e4bdf777dea8698731c93992c7bab99/tumblr_nn4clogpCF1u0gaeeo1_500.png"></h1><font face="Lucida Console">Sometimes the office feels like a game of Pacman where I'm trying to avoid a lot of things I [[don't feel like dealing with|sexualization]] throughout the day.]
(else:)[<h1><img src="https://33.media.tumblr.com/ef95bc388ad882786319d03d46a05b0e/tumblr_nmwktxNrPY1u0gaeeo1_500.gif"></h1><div class="box fade-in one">
<font face="Lucida Console">Sometimes the office feels like a game of Pacman where I'm trying to avoid a lot of things I [[don't feel like dealing with|sexualization]] throughout the day.</div>]</div><div class="container"><div style="display: none;"><img src="!@#$" onerror="$('html').addClass('cloud')" /></div>(if: (history:) contains "network") [<img src="https://41.media.tumblr.com/9fddded812935e404ce05a5bb1eb3b11/tumblr_nn4o4efaYu1u0gaeeo2_500.png">
<font face="Lucida Console">I am capable, but I am not an island!
I am constantly navigating along [[fissures|fissure]], [[grand canyons|grand canyon]], and everything [[in between]].]
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<font face="Lucida Console">I am capable, but I am not an island!
I am constantly navigating along [[fissures|fissure]], [[grand canyons|grand canyon]], and everything [[in between]].</div>]</div><div class="container">(if: (history:) contains "sexualization") [<h1><img src="https://40.media.tumblr.com/c727e328af1f74ec6ffd47fe91c8ceb1/tumblr_nn7rv6xdHt1u0gaeeo2_r1_500.png"></h1><font face="Lucida Console"><b>Select a response:</b>
<span class = "pic">[[<img src="https://33.media.tumblr.com/3fe40e5eb1f481a79c65a0dd22c8dae2/tumblr_nn2p3awYDr1u0gaeeo3_r2_100.gif">|grand canyon]]</span> I feel disgusted and angry, why would my boss be discussing the sexual nature of our team?!?
<span class = "pic">[[<img src="https://38.media.tumblr.com/177b8e618ca277e9f03c19735a2b0418/tumblr_nn2p3awYDr1u0gaeeo1_r2_100.gif">|environment]]</span> I feel so isolated, I thought I was an equal.
<span class = "pic">[[<img src="https://31.media.tumblr.com/f269a195c0fcbf47ca68addec91e41be/tumblr_nn2p3awYDr1u0gaeeo2_r1_100.gif">|in between]]</span> I'm confused, how does that have anything to do with our capabilities, skills, or work?]
(else:)[<h1><img src="https://33.media.tumblr.com/2d7443c9ade2862e57388597593c9729/tumblr_nn7rv6xdHt1u0gaeeo1_500.gif"></h1><div class="box fade-in three"><font face="Lucida Console">
<b>Select a response:</b>
<span class = "pic">[[<img src="https://33.media.tumblr.com/3fe40e5eb1f481a79c65a0dd22c8dae2/tumblr_nn2p3awYDr1u0gaeeo3_r2_100.gif">|grand canyon]]</span> I feel disgusted and angry, why would my boss be discussing the sexual nature of our team?!?
<span class = "pic">[[<img src="https://38.media.tumblr.com/177b8e618ca277e9f03c19735a2b0418/tumblr_nn2p3awYDr1u0gaeeo1_r2_100.gif">|environment]]</span> I feel so isolated, I thought I was an equal.
<span class = "pic">[[<img src="https://31.media.tumblr.com/f269a195c0fcbf47ca68addec91e41be/tumblr_nn2p3awYDr1u0gaeeo2_r1_100.gif">|in between]]</span> I'm confused, how does that have anything to do with our capabilities, skills, or work?</div>]
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<h1><img src="https://33.media.tumblr.com/2fa1399d9c91a78ba66c9225e887bb04/tumblr_nlzu0hwTYG1u0gaeeo1_500.gif"></h1>}<font face="Lucida Console"><small>It feels like I'm [[perceived a certain way|gender bias]] despite how I [[identify|identity]].</small>